Minsan o madalas, iniisip mo kung ano bang gusto mong mangyari sa buhay mo. Kung bibigyan ng pagkakataong pumili ng gusto mo, hindi mo rin alam kung ano ba talaga. Kung anong meron ka, minsan nagsasawa ka na, pero ayaw mo namang humanap ng mas maganda. Dumadating din yung punto na napapagod ka na sa paulit-ulit na ikot ng buhay mo, mula umaga hanggang sa pagtulog, gusto mong may magbago, pero nakakatakot maging iba, nakakatakot sumubok ng bago o sadyang nakakatamad lang talaga. Nakakahiyang magreklamo dahil kahit papano mas okay naman ung buhay mo kumpara sa mga taong hindi nakakakain ng tatlong beses sa isang araw.
Habang tumatanda ka, lalong nagiging mahirap ang buhay. Iniisip mo na ung mga bagay na dati wala kang pakialam. Madami ka nang nakakasalamuhang ibang tao, kaya lalong dumadami problema mo. Dumadami na ang mga kakilala mong namamatay, madami nang nag-aasawa, madami nang nabubuntis na classmates mo nung highschool, dumadami na din ang mga nag-iibang bansa. At eto ikaw, naghihintay ng isang malaking BOOM sa buhay mo, yung life-changing, yung breath-taking, yung earth-shaking! Pero di mo alam kung maghihintay ka lang ba o gagawa ka ng paraan. Tanga, you make things happen nga eh! HAAAYYY
Araw-araw, di ako makapaghintay na pumatak ang alas-kwatro ng hapon para makauwi na ng bahay. Pagdating ng bahay, kakain muna at magkukulong na sa kwarto, dadamputin si Santiago Last week lang namin siya binili. Hindi ko maalala kung kailan pa binili ung luma naming gitara, matagal na atang panahon yun, sirang-sira na nga siya eh, isang kanta palang kailangan mo na ulit itono, kaya ang kapal ng kalyo ko sa daliri.
You, this song’s for you
Listen carefully and feel it, too
You can smile for me, and move your lips
Close your eyes, feel my finger tips
You give me butterflies
Flying through this heart of mine
Your sweet face is just enough
To give me butterflies
I write songs when I was still in highschool, when my life was still easy, when my life revolved only in our small town, when I thought life would always be happy, lol I still think that way, but some parts have changed, and it’s still good, I guess
Anyway, I’ve composed 3 songs, one song for my bestfriend, one song for nothing (ala lang), and one song for my ultimate highschool crush, lol. Graduation was near and it really made me sad because I will never see him again It started out with just a poem, but I thought my feelings for him was so grand that I want to make it more dramatic and cooler at the same time, lol, then “How” was born. That’s the title. ang cheesy! HAHA. But I love singing that song
But, he never knew I have a song for him, and I have no plans of telling him. Well, how? I have no idea where he is right now. lol. So I think that’s the interesting part.. How does it feel when someone composes a song just for YOU? And it’s a love song. Man, that would be the most beautiful feeling on earth, at least for me, because composing is talent and love combined, who will not appreciate that??
Sad to say, that was the last song I’ve composed. But…