Overquestioned question of the month:
bakit wala ka pang boyfriend?

*pulls hair*

Some people find it unbelievable that I never had a boyfriend since my existence, and I’m already 23. BAT AYAW NYONG MANIWALA! Before, I care less, but now it made me feel that something must be really wrong with me. =S Kasi kayo eh! Tanong kayo nang tanong eh! Sabay sabay pa talaga kayo. huhu. But seriously, do I really NEED a boyfriend to feel that I’m normal? And if I’m normal, is it equal to being happy? Peer pressure ito!

I remembered a ym conversation a year ago with a good friend, Jonel, but we all call him Becky. It goes a little something like this:

becky: nagka boyfriend ka na ba?
me: hindi pa. NBSB ako eh
becky: ano ung NBSB?
me: no boyfriend since birth
becky: ang lungkot naman ng buhay mo.
me: hindi naman
me: never pa kong nagka-bf so hindi ko alam kung anong feeling, so hindi ko hinahanap hanap.

So what’s the big deal? With my age, if my calculation is right, I should had at least 3-5 guys already, and 4 of them are ex boyfriends. So what’s the use of having 4 exes if I’ll end up with one guy only? Of course you’ll say that it is just normal to pick the wrong ones before finally getting the right guy. But what if, I don’t want to pick the wrong ones and would wait for the ultimate soulmate of my life? Of course you’ll say again, how would I know? Yeah, how in the world would I know. Damn. But wait, when I was still in high school, I made a pact with HIM, and HE promised me something, and until now I believe HE will grant my wish. It’s a top secret wish. /gg

Pero parang ayaw ko nang magkatotoo ung wish ko, badtrip kasi mga tao, useless lang ang lahat. Nag madre na lang sana ako…